ExMormon's Search For Meaning: On Life After Faith Crisis

ExMormon's Search For Meaning

Why did I believe so fervently? How was I so delusional? What now?

Those are some of the daunting questions that haunted Zach Olsen through his faith crisis and tentative steps toward reestablishing a new worldview. Before realizing the religion of his birth wasn’t true, Olsen had completed a two-year stint as a missionary, married in the Mormon temple and had four kids who were reared under the church’s precepts. His book traces the first warning signs of losing his faith: the denial, the avoidance and then the shocking realization that what had once been absolute truth was a man-made invention all along. At the outset of his faith crisis, he fell into a deep depression, lost all sense of meaning and suffered to make sense of what to do with his life. Starting from square one, he set out to establish a new belief system of his own, drawing on psychology, physics, ancient philosophy, Eastern religions, mysticism and the nature of reality itself. With compelling, unflinching prose, ExMormon’s Search For Meaning provides insights, advice and hope for anyone starting over after a crisis of faith.

Table of Contents:

  • From The Outside Looking In
  • The Last One To Discover Beliefs
  • This Is Your Chance
  • Regret
  • Sad Truth or Happy Lie?
  • Happier?
  • How to Suffer
  • Losing Appendages
  • From Placebos To Sugar Pills
  • Get Off The Treadmill
  • From Something To Nothing
  • You Already Have All the Foundational Beliefs You Need
  • Unhealthy Meaning
  • Who leaves first?
  • Institutionalized Suffering
  • Shameful Meaning
  • Helpful Suffering or Coping Mechanism?
  • Reasons Why We Self-Deceive #1
  • So What Does Success Look Like?
  • Meaningful Attention
  • Gradually, Then Suddenly
  • Become a Bayesian
  • From Certainty to Uncertainty
  • Is Anything Real?
  • Strong Drink
  • Question Everything?
  • Old Friend and New Friend
  • A New Temple
  • In Search Of Questions
  • Reasons Why We Self-Deceive #2
  • The Illusion of Explanatory Depth
  • Learn To Defy Nature
  • Your Overwhelmed Brain
  • Freedom In Constraints
  • Reasons Why We Self-Deceive #3
  • All Stories Are False But Some Are Helpful
  • Create Your Own Sabbath Day
  • Your New Calling
  • From Ten Percent to Effective Altruism
  • Invent New Rites of Passage
  • The Enlightenment Is Still Ongoing
  • Ancient Wisdom
  • None Of My Concern
  • Limited Vision Board
  • Thinking School Graduation
  • From Faith Crisis to Spiritual Experience
  • The Most Powerful Spiritual Experience of My Life
  • Take Responsibility
  • Spiritual Exercises
  • Maxims For ExMormons
  • Aligning Your Will With The Universe’s
  • Service School Graduation
  • Overcoming Adversity
  • Part of Something Bigger Than Yourself
  • Therapy
  • CBT
  • Reality Check
  • Meaningful Work
  • If You Want To Understand Your Mind, Sit Down And Observe it
  • Impermanence
  • What Was the Real Cause For Your Faith Crisis?
  • Sip The Kool-Aid
  • The Idea Of Religion
  • The Wise Man and the Foolish Man
  • Where Do Morals Come From?
  • Find Meaning Or Lose Meaning?
  • Joseph Campbell and the Hero’s Journey
  • God is a Metaphor
  • 1-propionyl-lysergic acid diethylamide
  • Your Spacesuit
  • Acceptance
  • You’re A Witness
  • Finding Your True Selves
  • Meaningful Relationships
  • Unconditional Love Or Love With Boundaries?
  • Meaningful Sex
  • Is There Life Before Death?
  • Broken Open
  • You Know You’re An ExMormon
    Whose Finally Out When…
  • A Unified Theory Of Everything

If for whatever reason you prefer not to purchase ExMormon’s Search For Meaning but would still like to read it, send me an email and I’d be happy to send you a digital version for free: olsen.zach[@]gmail.com

©Zach Olsen 2020